Sunday, January 31, 2010

Now You See It

And Now You Don't

Do you remember that time I was working? too. I was doing my ACT prep, bumbling along as best I could. Was I the absolute best teacher? No. But I tried hard and I think at least a few kids learned something.

I get my first real critique on Wednesday at noon.
I got pulled from my school Thursday (my day off) at 4.

So while I'm not technically "fired", I still might do some proctoring in a few weeks, but still. I call it being "pseudo-fired".

Doesn't make me feel any better. I also don't really want them to call me for substitute work. It freaks me out in a very real way. (to expand upon in a different entry)

So there's that. I was employed, and now I'm sort of not. Gives me plenty of time to finish up my grad school applications and whatever.

We're all in this together, right?

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Working 9 to 5

While I'm not actually working 9 to 5, I am now working.

I am doing my ACT prep at a school here in Michigan. I want to keep it vague, until after the position is over. This whole thing is guaranteed to end March 5th.

It's somewhat rewarding sometimes, when a student understand something on the test or figures out something they were having trouble with.
On the other hand, I was called "nice but boring" the other day, which bothered me more than it should. I was trying to go over geometry-not always the most fascinating of subjects.

But whatever happens, this whole experience will be good for me, and it's definitely better than not working. Or even working at the coffee shop. I have different responsibilities and a different set of "woes", if you will.

I'm just happy that however it happens, my life is moving forward. It's reassuring that this year will be better than last.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Life's Better With Company

I'm still very unemployed, and both scared and exhilarated at the same time.

Today my dad drove my mom to the airport, which was very nice. While I could have done it myself, it was snowing (not wicked hard, but reasonably decent) and it was nice to just go along for the ride, as compared to doing all the work myself.

The other day my parents and I saw Up In The Air. There is this scene with George Clooney (sigh) and Anna Kendrick (the girl who plays Jessica in Twilight). They are on an airplane together, and she is working on her laptop.
I admit, she is typing fairly furiously. In all honesty, she is banging the crap out of her poor laptop. George asks (basically) "What did your computer ever do to you?" and then it hit me.

This is how my mom thinks I type. Bang. Bang. Bang.

My laptop didn't do anything to me. I just "type with purpose" (as Anna says to George). And I type quickly.

Sidenote-See Up In The Air. It's a timely film for this particular moment. Especially living in Detroit, and now that I've joined the ranks of our unemployed. Some of the film is funny, some of it really isn't, and it ends on a bittersweet note.

As George says in the film, "Life's better with company". It's a good note to end on.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Moving Forward and Why It Scares Me Shitless

As we have learned, I quit my job at the coffee shop last year. I put in my two weeks notice and my last day was over a week ago.

In the meantime, I was hired and then given no information on a new job. But that isn't the point of this entry.

I have now become "unemployed". I have joined Michigan's vast amount of unemployed people. And I am simultaneously terrified and unafraid. I know I can't go back to the coffee shop. The atmosphere is toxic to both me and the people around me. I become someone I don't want to be around, and I know how unhappy it makes me. In turn, I make most people around me miserable.

This is my declaration. There has to be a point where someone stands up and says "Enough." My life this year will be better for this and I know it.

I'm closing my eyes and jumping. I am saying "enough" and moving forward in the most scary and wonderful way.
I am unafraid. And I am scared shitless.

Promise to go on this ride as a group. It'll be fun. I swear.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

How many blogs can I start (and not finish)?

Emily: I'm trying to hold myself accountable with Krav/training now
Emily: as in,
Emily: I look like a slacker if I don't do something for a few days now
Alexa: OH HAI. For realz-while I don't Krav, this is a good idea because I am a lazy shit and shouldn't be
Emily: I wonder how long it'll last, though
Emily: we fail at our other blog
Emily: ...and this conversation should go on it.
Alexa: Obvs. But I popped the 2010 cherry thank you very much
Emily: That you did.

PS: I'm going to Maryland for 10 days (leaving tomorrow morning) and I packed a small bottle of Tapatio in my suitcase. I don't trust my small-town stores to have it there. Priorities.

Alexa: I'm so proud of us. 2 entries in 2010 and it's only Jan 6th
Alexa: So far, so good.

Monday, January 4, 2010

2010 Bitches!

And I now will pop the cherry on the 2010 posting for this blog.

A few things-Christmas was delightful. I received a GPS to let me know where I am going while driving, which is nice. Especially since I tend to be clueless when driving. I hope it's sort of a metaphor for my life-while before I generally was lost, now I have some sort of direction.

On December 30, 2009 I had my last day of employment at the coffee shop. I had put in my 2 weeks notice, and it all came down to that fateful Wednesday. We should note that it was fantastic. While the job that I was hoping to get has sort of changed (a long story for an entry that isn't this one), I think this is the 2010 kick in the ass to change my life. Whether it be a new job, grad school or whatever. I need something else.

And on that note-your turn Emily. Pop that 2010 cherry. It's delightful, I swear.