Long Time, Big Moment

I've got a lot to write about, albeit some of it more interesting than other parts of it.

More importantly, I had a big moment the other day.

And without further ado-here it is.

If I don't get into a grad school which requires me to move out of state and therefore, out of my house in MI and quit my job at the coffee shop, I'm quitting. I know it's a long way away, but I will not work past December 31.
It's a small concession, a potentially lame revelation-but I think, especially as of late, it's possibly the best decision I've made in a while.

So there's that. I think it's pretty brilliant. Even if it scares me a little.

Moving Forward and Why It Scares Me Shitless

As we have learned, I quit my job at the coffee shop last year. I put in my two weeks notice and my last day was over a week ago.

In the meantime, I was hired and then given no information on a new job. But that isn't the point of this entry.

I have now become "unemployed". I have joined Michigan's vast amount of unemployed people. And I am simultaneously terrified and unafraid. I know I can't go back to the coffee shop. The atmosphere is toxic to both me and the people around me. I become someone I don't want to be around, and I know how unhappy it makes me. In turn, I make most people around me miserable.

This is my declaration. There has to be a point where someone stands up and says "Enough." My life this year will be better for this and I know it.

I'm closing my eyes and jumping. I am saying "enough" and moving forward in the most scary and wonderful way.
I am unafraid. And I am scared shitless.

Promise to go on this ride as a group. It'll be fun. I swear.